I believe many of us want to be part of an adventure. We want to have that "go-to" crowd pleaser story that we can boast about! An adventure that we had the guts to brave and a time when we surprised ourselves.
In my life, I love seeing amazing things happen. Things that just reaffirm the good in life and the goodness of God. However, if I'm honest, I simultaneously ask God to keep me out of any situation in which a miracle would actually be required. (lol don't judge me)
There may be a teeny tiny itsy bitsy bit of a control freak deep down in my heart.
Convinced? Yeah me neither lol. I hate when I'm in situations where even my best efforts can't fully "fix" it. I don't need to have all the answers all the time, but when things seem to be going awry, I DO want to be able to resolve them. However, the reality is, sometimes we can't fix things or undo what has already happened. And for me, this can lead to insecurity.
According to our buddy Webster, insecurity means deficient in assurance; beset by fear & anxiety; not firmly fastened or fixed.
I promise I'm not being facetious in inserting a definition but it helps me to look up the meanings of words to aid a deeper understanding. As I read this, I thought "wow! I know I've felt some of these emotions before."
And can I be even more transparent? I felt some of it as I thought about whether or not to write this blog post.